Monday, August 18, 2008

Let It Go

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust is a hard thing for me. In the last few days, I have really had to explore this, and I've come to realize that for a long time, and in different ways, I have really only had trust in myself. I don't even think that I have as much trust in The Lord as I should have. I I feel like I am "weak" if I can't figure things out on my own. I'd rather do things myself then to "let go" and share the job/responsibility/feelings with other people. I have put it on myself to "do it all" for everyone and it has affected my health; physically, mentally and spiritually.

But, how do I let go? I have no idea. How do I give up the control? How do I have enough faith to Trust in The Lord? All I know is what I've been doing is not working for me. I'm exhausted and at the end of my rope. Somehow, I've got to figure this out.

9 comments:

Nikki said...

Ok, Weak would not be the word I would describe you, quite the opposite more like STRONG. I know we all know ourselved though, we think and feel a certain way. but outsiders looking it would never think that of you. Guaranteed.

AZMom said...

Oh sweetie!! You are such a kind, caring and wonderful person which is why you feel you can do it all. I have no words of wisdom of how to let things go because there are times I can't either. All I can say is that I can sympathize right now because of one more thing goes wrong in my life at the moment, I don't know what I am going to do either.

Big huge hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chicka said...

One day at a time sweetie. One day at a time. That's all you can do.

I'm not much on faith, so I can't help there. But honestly - you just get through life one hurdle at a time no matter whether you're faith-based or not.

Life isn't always peaches, but cobbler doesn't have to look pretty in the end to be mighty tasty. Know what I mean? (Long story short - our Polish dance group has just lost our classroom which is a HUGE hurdle for us - but we're going to muddle through, no matter what. You pick up what pieces you have, and move onward and upward.)

You can do it!

Strider said...

When you are weak, then He is strong. So it stands to reason that when you are strong, He is weak. I think we go down the wrong road when we think we have to "Trust Him more." Why? Because "We" have to do it. Just the thing He isn't looking for. Anything that "we" have to do limits God. So try this.....don't "Do" anything unless you see the Father doing it! Be blessed. We all come to this point and in order to go forward spiritually......"We" has to rest. Let Go, and let God....it's a challenge, but worth it.

Di said...

Just remember to let people be there for you too. It feels so much better to let it out. Maybe that is what we are here for!

SalGal said...

I just keep reminding myself that I am not responsible for others happiness or misery. I'm only responsible for my own and if I'm not happy, it's likely that others are not as well.

I hope the visit goes well and that you start getting the tools you need to be yourself again!

nanatrish said...

I am glad to hear you are questioning about your trust in the Lord. He is our hope and salvation. Have you talked to Him about your situation? I mean really taken time to pray and read your bible. I don't mean to sound preachy, but He is the Way, the Truth and the Life. I will be praying that you can release your will to Him and let Him show you what you need to do in your life. You have a beautiful family and seem to be a very warm sweet person. You have much to be thankful for. Sometimes focusing on the Lord and all the blessings He has given us helps to bring our spirit up. I'll be praying.

Jaime said...

I used to find it hard to delegate and "let go" of things too. (I still do.) But when I was in YW, I finally got to the point where I would delegate, or let someone else do their part, and if they failed, I let them. I didn't try to cover for them or take it all on anymore. I learned that their failure didn't reflect on me. I think that was what made me want to take everything on at first; If someone's activity (etc) totally bombed, I felt like the Bishopric or the parents would think I wasn't doing a good job. But then I realized that eveyone is a steward of their own calling/responsibilities. If I did it all, it wasn't fair to them. Of course I had given them any help they needed, but I left the rest up to them. And believe me, we had some bombers. But hopefully we all learned something. I think we have to let go to help others learn and grow. Love you :)

Lavinia said...

drama mama I struggle with the same thing....figuring out how to give it all to God...all the worries and all the anxieties....I think moms are just not built to unload responsibilities...we take it all on ourselves...we know how much is on our shoulders.....

But trusting God is the worthiest goal there is!