"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
Trust is a hard thing for me. In the last few days, I have really had to explore this, and I've come to realize that for a long time, and in different ways, I have really only had trust in myself. I don't even think that I have as much trust in The Lord as I should have. I I feel like I am "weak" if I can't figure things out on my own. I'd rather do things myself then to "let go" and share the job/responsibility/feelings with other people. I have put it on myself to "do it all" for everyone and it has affected my health; physically, mentally and spiritually.
But, how do I let go? I have no idea. How do I give up the control? How do I have enough faith to Trust in The Lord? All I know is what I've been doing is not working for me. I'm exhausted and at the end of my rope. Somehow, I've got to figure this out.