Last week, a girl from church called and asked if I would be the auctioneer at a "service auction" they are having tonight. She said they wanted someone to do it that would make it "fun". You guys...I haven't felt "fun" for a very long time. When I have to, like tonight, or last week at the reunion, I can fake a good "fun". But afterwards, I seriously crash.
I have always been the one people count on for "fun". When I worked, I was the go to gal in planning various festivities, from store meetings to Christmas parties. My family expects certain "fun-ness" from me. I am a "drama" type person and can usually put on a good show. But, I just don't feel it anymore. I'm tired. I'm grouchy. Sometimes I feel like people are sucking the life out of me. What's wrong with me?
I want to get back to that happy go lucky girl I used to be. What happened to her?
Agggghhhhhh!! Maybe I'll pick up a Rockstar and some Excedrin on my way to the Auction tonight...for a little kick in the pants. (Just kidding...sorta.)