In the past several weeks, we have really been trying to get to know our neighbors. Well, at least the ones on the West side. They are a really nice family, and I've started walking with the wife in the evenings. (Ok...so I've only walked once so far, but it will continue!) A couple of weeks ago, I went over to their house to invite them to a party at over at the church. She came to the door and immediatly invited me in. Not only that, she offered to show me her WHOLE house. And she did. Our houses have just about the same floor plan, so it's always fun to see what other people have done with the space. The thing is, she took me everywhere, even her closet. There was no sign of any kind of mess in ANY room, or closet, or laundry room for that matter. Everything was SPOTLESS! It made me feel like crap! (Because, of course, she wants to come see our house!)
If someone you hardly knew came over to your house, would you feel confidant enough to lead them through every room?? Not me! I told her, in a joking way, but really meaning it, that I'd have to do a LOT of cleaning before she could see ALL my house. I then went home and had a breakdown, cracking the whip at my family for being such slackers. (Of course, I'm the biggest slacker of all. I was really mostly mad at myself. Oh yeah...and PMS didn't help that week either.)
Since then, I have been really working on parts of my house that are the most disturbing. I have cleared off a particularly junky looking bakers rack that was stacked with various stacks of junk. I have mostly cleared off my desk. I have even tackled that big stack of old mail/school papers sitting on the counter in my kitchen. Yes, I even dusted the walls. As I look around, I'm still not happy with how things look. Our carpet is so old, and the walkways are so gross, it doesn't matter how much I vacuum or even shampoo them, they still look HORRID! And the carpet is BLUE! (We didn't pick it out.)
I am trying really hard, but will I ever be happy with my house?? Will my neighbor ever be allowed to venture past the fr0nt room?? Only time will tell.